02 August 2004

What the hell am I doing (here)?!

Robert Paterson's Weblog: Magic Numbers - School and Learning Engagment

Having read the above blog by Robert Paterson something struck me today - my son will never learn the things from me which I learnt from my dad. The way our kids are educated is changing into a factory -they are sitting and listening - similar to that which they do in front of the TV - and this is changing them. Once again have a look at the above blog - he has much more insight into the effect modern life is having on our children.

This is scaring me - where I was able to watch my dad do tinkering on the car, do some woodwork in the house - something he was looking forward to on retirement but never able to do as cancer claimed him at 54 - my son lives in a rented house, cars are serviced by a dealer, everything is bought and replaceable. We went camping often when I was a kid - getting away from the familiar home life to a place where we could spend time together.

What values am I teaching my son:
That money is all important?
That it is Ok to run away if things are not ok?
That values are transient - that we can change this?
That family is not important?
What do I hope that by giving him an education which he would not get back in South Africa:
Is going to make him a better human being?
Is going to enable him to re-act better to the quick changing Global Society we live in?
Is he missing a vital interaction to people, family and friends that was left behind?

I will have to sit down and think carefully:
About why we left out home country South-Africa?
Would we be ever be able to go back?
And if we stayed - what would he have been able to gain out of a country where crime is prevalent, corruption is to be increasing, government services is close to collapse and my experience and education is meaningless because I am white?
On the other hand - what are we doing here in a country which sees me as something to be used and to be thrown away once I have outlived my usefulness?
As you can see - I have at this moment lots more questions than answers ... and a lot of thinking to do.